So F'in Proud of us!!

So, two years ago, right before our wedding, Chris and I vowed to pay off the 1 credit card that we had that had a balance. I'd been stupid with it before we met, and we'd been stupid with it together. No wedding expenses were on it, but we owed upwards of $7,000. Yup, Seven Thousand Dollars. It hurts to say that. It hurts to write that.

So, for the last two years and three months, we have been paying money towards it every month. First $200 and then $300 and then $400 and in the end $500. Five Hundred Dollars each and every month for something we didn't get to eat, or read, or drive, or wear or anything. $500 just to get it paid down. A year or so ago, we agreed to scrimp and save even more and limited ourselves to a $20 every other week allowance. It's been hard, but I am SO PROUD to say that today, I wrote a check for $451.20 that officially makes us credit card debt free.

OH MY GOD!!!

Told Chris' BFF

Stevie, Chris' bff, also lives in Austin (not married to my bff, wouldn't that be funny!), but he comes to Denver about 3 or 4 times a year for work, and so we get to see him somewhat often. Anyway, he was in town this week for work, and so over at the house last night visiting. I kept asking Chris when he was going to say something to Steve about our ttc, and he kept saying he would, but that being pregnant would be much more exciting news. Anyway, he finally said something to Steve last night. It was fun to share in that with him. Chris doesn't have many close friends, and so I think it was nice for him to be able to tell Steve in person. Now, if we could just find the time and energy this month. With the holidays looming, it seems like we're always tired. I am thinking December will not be our month.

Just Not Feeling Right

I don't know what my deal is, but I am tired and crabby and really just quite fed up with most everyone around me. I think that my body is having issues with the lack of hormones since I stopped taking my pills. I have more headaches and backaches then ever, and I just feel like I could sleep for days if everyone would leave me alone. I suppose it doesn't hurt that I've been busting my butt on trial prep for a case that settled at the last second, but a nap sounds so wonderful right now. My ovulation calendar isn't working, and my appointment with my doctor had to be moved to the day before we fly out to Phoenix. I want to ask her a million questions. Chris and I will both be on vacation, so maybe I'll drag him out there with me. I just feel "off" somehow, and I can't seem to figure out why, or catch up on sleep. I can't sleep in at Donna's house and she gets up so early. I mean, I can sleep in, but I feel guilty, so I don't.

I think I'll go find some milk and cookies and lock myself in my office for a while. Vent over.

Ahha, There She Is

Aunt flo showed up tonight, and boy does she seem mad! At least I know for sure my dollar store pregnancy test wasn't just a dud.

NEXT!

Peed on a Stick This Morning

Last month I was, honestly, a little shocked when my aunt flo showed up right on schedule. I thought, for being the 1st month officially off of birth control, I'd be a mess. But, there she was, right on time. So, this month she hasn't shown up yet, and was due yesterday. Hmmm . . . .

I had heard that The Dollar Store carried pregnancy tests, and being the Dollar Store, they are $1 each. SCORE! So, I went to the one by our house last night. I wasn't really there to wander, so I went straight to that section and grabbed two of them. I went to the front to check out, and for some reason, was horribly embarrassed by what I was holding. I clutched them tight to my chest so that no one could see them and tried not to make eye contact. I have a wedding ring on, but I just couldn't face those people. Odd, I know. I paid my $2.16 and ran like hell.

Chris found my bag on the kitchen table, and was quite excited at the idea of a home pregnancy test. We looked at the directions, and talked about when I'd take it. I know I didn't sleep well, lots of tossing and turning, and I am pretty sure he was the same.

I rolled out of bed at 6:10 this morning and he was right there waiting. So, I took the test and we closed the door and waited 1 minute. We looked together, and it was negative (bet you never thought I'd get to the results, huh?!?). Anyway, we are ok with it, and will charge on next month.

Still no sign of flo, so I guess we'll wait and see what the deal is. Next time I have to brave the Dollar Store for pregnancy tests, I'm wearing sunglasses, a dark hooded jacket, and buying 20 of them so I don't have to go back. I felt so "high school" it was ridiculous!

Ouch!

Last Friday, I had our ancient heater serviced for the year. The service technician found a leak, and so he turned off the gas line and said it was basically illegal for us to run the heater! Crap!! In a panic I called Brooke, who's uncle owns a heating company. The quote was way more than what we have in savings, so we had to take out a signature loan with the credit union. Which got me thinking that we should postpone ttc for a few months while we deal with getting the loan paid back. Part of what we've been doing the last few months is paying off all the debt we can . . . . Chris' bike, our mattress set, the 1 credit card that has a balance, etc. But, then I realized that every time there was a financial set back in our future, I would have those same fears and worries, and we would wait. And, well, with today's economy in the toilet, we could be retired before we could afford to have kids. So, I changed my mind and didn't tell Chris until after the fact. Let's face it, no one can ever afford to have kids. Well, except for the lottery winners, and since I don't play, that's just not ever going to happen.

Nope, Not This Month

I woke up this morning to my "aunt flo" being in town. I can't say I am suprised, and, honestly, I am not really even sad. Every mom I know tells me that they knew when they were pregnant. I didn't feel pregnant at all. And, I couldn't quite believe that we would manage to get lucky the very first time and the very first month I was off the pill. I am hopeing that this isn't a sign of things to come, but I refuse to dwell on it right now.

Onto cycle #2 we go.